I am Me
My color has shaped who I am, for good and for bad. In life I battle some ups and downs and try to be different. I try not to judge others before I know them. I’m neither perfect nor do I try to be. I do fight.
I still learn and I listen to what is going on around me. I’m ignorant, but the fact that I know I am, has set me on a path to unveil my future.
I’m a fifteen-year-old student at Ocean Academy in Caye Caulker. I’m a strong and free female. I’m dark and lovely. “Yes, dark!” I can’t really change that and also wouldn’t. “Guess what:” I was born this way. I am not very good in confronting others in a nice way when I’m upset or in a bad mood. I take my troubles out on people. Now I’m in this FLC thing and hope that this will help me to better control my feelings and my anger. I seem very shy and quiet at first as well, until you get to know me. “The real me.” Most people think that I’m a stuck up person - that’s not true, but I don’t waste my time trying to change people’s opinions about me. If they are around me more they will find out that I am not that bad. I’m not very girly, except for the times when I want to feel “pretty”. Clothes and hairstyle are far from my mind most of the time. I like having girls to hangout and talk. I’m from a small town called Dangriga. I’m a little confused about what being dark really is, but I try not to let it effect my life. Oh, I almost forgot when I finish school I want to become a lawyer, “a professional lawyer” and those are a few things about “Who I Am”. A mixed up young, dark lady with a big world ahead of me.
Myself and how I sometimes feel
So many times I’ve tried so hard in life.
Through emotional and especially personal times I try battling myself and encourage myself to have confidence but it doesn’t seem to be working. Every morning I get out of bed, I try to face the mirror and say, “ I am strong and there is nothing a beautiful young lady like me can’t accomplish”.
But then again I don’t think I’m worth it. I fail myself during my hard, struggling times. Sometimes I think I don’t deserve to be in this world and the only thing that holds me back from letting myself down is “ my future”. I want to see what God has planned for me and of course that is if I live to see it; and if I don’t, well it’s just God’s choice because I can’t say what is coming ahead or what is going to happen that minute.
I’m just an ordinary fifteen-year-old young lady trying to get what is best for me.
Why I read
Sometimes I feel like giving up but thanks to whoever invented books I keep on going.
It’s hard to say that those little quotes and advise I read help me to better understand or take care of my problems. I read to find solutions for my personal problems, not because I love the character – because I love it’s words.